-i decline-

I wasn’t supposed to be like this
With anger simmering under ice
With numbness coating the heart
With the body still without the soul

In comes the careless violence
Followed by aching dreams of normalcy
Thoughts breaking the silence
When did I accept this?

Why do I have to change?
Why can’t I just be?
Can’t you see?
Can’t you hear?
Can’t you just feel?

To be me and not your ideal.
To be real and not your doll.
To be seen and not your shadow.

Is that the way I must conform?
To lie still when you perform?
To quiet my thoughts while you take?
To be your possession instead of a mate?

Is that what you wish of me?
To sit back and refuse to see
To shut my eyes to all which you despise

So I’ll decline, but thank you.
For showing me what’s wrong with you
How can I be when you refuse to see
I decline the offer to be
A slave inside the travesty

I’ve disengaged myself from your pain
And refuse to lie among the sickness
I’ll take back my stolen pride
That you distributed among the gore

Remove your hand that bites
Remove the chains that bind
I will no longer sit quiet and calm
So I decline the role fostered on me
To be a slave inside your travesty

Drink your pain
Swallow your hate
Bring inside which you so gladly gave to me
Suffer below me and feel
The heating sting recede into ice

So keep your pain and your orders
Crawl inside the cave of your soul
And sit amongst your filth and suffering
I decline the position bestowed upon me
As you become a slave wrapped in travesty